Hey there friends,
Want to know a secret? Don’t tell anyone, ok. This is just between friends, and while we\’re still getting to know each other I figured this may help you understand me a little bit more.
I struggle with caring what others think. Yup, guilty as charged. I actually care what people think of me. That makes it awfully difficult to be who I was made to be when others’ opinions of me have the power to change how I act or even think. I’m working on it. But wait! There’s more…
I struggle with being a perfectionist. It bothers me when things aren’t done a certain way. It even at times affects my relationship with the ones closest to me. On top of that, I’m a dreamer. I see things big picture and think they can be done the same day. Of course, my downfall is my patience. So even though God gave me the ability to see the big picture he is still cultivating an atmosphere of patience within me. That one is difficult.
I love being around people, but get my energy from the stillness of God’s creation. Nature is my jam and I would hike in the mountains every morning if I could, but live in South Mississippi where the land is sea level. Alternatively, I love kayaking, but our waters are infested with alligators. You could say God has me on quite the journey of learning my life is not my own.
Seriously though, I’m not perfect and I am pretty sure you aren’t either. I’m so glad we are able to get that out of the way so we can give each other the grace we all need.
I’m learning that no matter how many flaws I have I serve a God who sees me and loves me right where I am at. I am so thankful he won’t leave me there and takes the time to make me more like him daily. I was reading this morning in Psalm 111:5, it says “He satisfies all who love and trust him, and he keeps every promise he makes. ” My life may not look like how I big picture imagined it. But let me tell you, it’s so much greater! The mountains are beautiful, but there is nothing like the sound of waves rolling in from the ocean with morning dew. Caring for what others think has given me the compassion for others that I needed to see where they are coming from. This has given me the ability to love people and see them the way God does. I am so thankful that God blessed me with my boys who daily teach me how to let things go and the importance of what is truly a priority in my life. My house may not always be clean, but my babies always have all the kisses, hugs, and attention they need. So, friend, I want to encourage you. Life may not look like you thought it should, and you aren’t as put together as you wish, but he satisfies all who love and trust in him.
Be encouraged my friend, He’s not done with you yet.